Two souls torn apart,

I really would do that, but I have zero self-control. There are so many games I have that I want to beat, and if you add my little problem of never completing most of my games, then this is a bit of a problem. I now have Tales of the World: Radiant Mythology I really want to beat (haha, it'll take forever, probably), there's Lunar: Silver Star Harmony, YU PSP (it'd be nice to get to the battlefield where Nana-tan is encountered), Riviera PSP (and I'll have to go through THAT a couple times >.>), Knights in the Nightmare (I've beaten it ONCE, but I want to get Meria's route), Final Fantasy VII... Heck, there are a lot of them. There are even some games (Crisis Core, for example) that I want to restart and play from the beginning. And with Hexyz Force being released in America later this month, my zero self-control will once again get the better of me and I'll end up buying it.

And of course there's RPing on top of this. I hate calling hiatus in every RP I'm in though (and I still have to call it in one since I lack the motivation to play my character at the moment), and I'm not the best at tagging so quickly...

Then there's school... Thank god my school doesn't have final exams or anything like that.

I've been wanting one for a long time, yet I have no clue where I'd like to work. GameStop pops up as an idea, but I dunno if it's a good fit for me. Plus, with my social anxiety irl (and somewhat online), it'd be hard getting a decent one since jobs seem to pretty much require that you socialize with others, unless you're working in the back or something. I dunno. I've never actually had a job before where I worked someplace other than home, in my neighborhood, etc.

---LAMENTING AHEAD---

On a different note, I've been feeling REALLY incompetent lately. I've been feeling incompetent at digital graphics (icons, tags/banners for signatures, avatars for forums, etc.), playing my Muses without having them sound too much like myself, and, well...everything else.

I doubt I can blame the weather for this (I mean, two days off of school is nice, and I get all of next week off, AND I think I get this Friday off too) even though I've chosen to be stuck inside practically all day in my lair.

I suppose I could say I feel like what's required of me is more than I can handle, and that if I make one small mistake someone will blow up at me, which will follow up with my feelings being hurt and quite a few tears. Or maybe it's because I have to put up with my stepgrandfather yelling at my grandmother with Alzheimer's everyday RIGHT BENEATH MY ROOM. God I hope we move soon.

---END LAMENTING---

On a more positive note, I -finally- decided to pick up Knights in the Nightmare again and actually beat the damn thing so I can get Meria's route (seriously, I've had this game since its US release, and I hadn't beaten it earlier; I blame the "curse" I have, which is that I can never beat practically any game I ever own). I've been playing it all day rather than stay on here.

Anyways, whoever actually read all this (I doubt anyone did, though), thanks. And if anyone can recommend a decent anime/manga or video game series to me, I'm all ears (keep in mind I only have a DS, PSP, and Wii, plus the emulators I can get are limited since I use a Mac and my PC sucks virtual memory-wise).

...and I demand that you all buy me a present D=<

Joking aside, since my 16th birthday really is coming up, here are a few things I'm kinda hoping to get (yeah, yeah, it's 9 days before X-Mas, but still):

~A PSP (definitely number one on my list :3)
~Riviera: The Promised Land and Yggdra Union: We'll Never Fight Alone for PSP (so I can hear the smexy Japanese voices but still understand what they're saying from the text <3)
~The entire collection of Fairy Tail manga that's been released in the US
~A GameStop or Borders giftcard :X
~Hopefully a trip to Victoria, British Columbia or Mall of America, Minnesota :3
~$100+ (so I can donate for a paid account here and on another site, perhaps)

And people can add onto this list if they want XD Just saying~ You know, give me suggestions or whatever~ All suggestions welcome :3

-Lucia